​This question is inspiring me lately. Especially as I’ve been considering how around certain people and situations, I’ve felt like %5-%10 my True Self. ​As an intuitive empath I’m always feeling, and learning about the deeper layers within myself and others. I comprehend why many of us don’t feel safe to be Authentic. If there isn’t space for for emotional expression, they can get stuck and create blockages that harden over time, creating a barren numbness.

The connection between Emotions and Spirit is amazing to me. The more that I allow my Soul to flow Free, by caring about what I feel, treating my feelings like valuable intel, nurturing the enriching Connections that help me share my Truth, cultivating compassionate Communication skills, and courageously expressing my Soul in my Full Wattage… The more I feel like Me. Alive. Awake. Inspiring. Present. Authentic.

I’ve often heard that sexual abuse is a kind of Soul murder. How it can create a disconnection from feelings, from honest emotional expression, from boundaries, from the body, from surrendering to pleasure, from the ability to fully Love and be Loved… And I believe that just like when a bone is broken, once it heals it can grow back even stronger. 

When I look at this lifetime and the healing journey I’ve been on for almost 20 years… Passionately (and sometimes desperately) pursuing all the therapeutic modalities and empowering options I could find to heal from PTSD triggers, deep emotional pain, intense anxiety, memories of CSA, being gaslit, and now stepping more fully into my Power… I’m amazed. Speaking up about it still feels tender and scary but I know that every time I do, I release layers of shame, and hopefully liberate others to share Authentically. 

Wow I feel shame even writing this. Carolyn Grace Elliot (author of Existential Kink, also CSA survivor and Magical Queen) says “shame is the magic killer”. Therefor every time we courageously liberate ourselves from shame’s shackles, we set more of our Magic Free. And it does require Warrior Levels of Courage. Especially when it comes to shifting the patterns to make the BIG CHANGES we’re here to make, both personally and culturally. 

Being a sensitive, feeling, empathic Soul can be hard in this world. Last week I met up with a friend who told me that their teenage son felt like he didn’t want to live anymore, and I was able to offer some compassionate support. I understand first hand what it’s like to have suicidal thoughts. Sometimes the challenges and perceived limitations are so overwhelming that there’s a desire to end it, eject, pop back into Spirit…

Yet something that has really helped me along the way is the experiential wisdom that every time I went through a moment of not wanting to live this human life anymore… It’s like my Soul was craving something More. Healing. Love. Authenticity. Power. Play. Freedom. Spirit. Purpose. Money. Heaven on Fucking Earth. And every time, I was energetically calling in and then experienced more of the qualities I was seeking. Abraham-Hicks say that “When you know what you don't want, you know what you do want” and that knowledge is empowering if we are willing to take the time to care about what we feel and take action in new directions.

I’m no stranger to the watery depths of sadness, grief, and emotional pain. Now that I am getting how Powerful inner work is: that it can change our perspective, thus our reality; and our emotional authenticity, thus how we are able to harmonize with others… I know it’s the biggest Game Changer. Being aware of the pain and the limiting patterns means that I can be present and choose new ones. I Choose Love. I Choose Heaven on Fucking Earth. 

I’m ready for my fiery rise. To be totally transparent, I’m seeking a Breakthrough. I’ve been super inspired about offering Transformational Coaching in harmony with psychedelic facilitation, as I know in my Soul that the Leaders, Healers, Creatives, and Spiritual Teachers I’m here to support can benefit most from having intuitive support along with the deep Magic of Medicines. Yet the journey of putting these offerings out there, believing in myself, and trusting in what Spirit is guiding me to do has been full of initiations and deep integrations…

​Now I’m in a place of Surrender… Believing in the intrinsic possibility and value of what I feel inspired to do… Trusting that the Souls I’m here to inspire and Work with will feel it… Flowing in a dance with Life, feeling when to let go and when I’m to take action… Realistically I know I’m awesome at facilitating the deepest healing for myself and others. Especially those who are intuitive, sensitive, empathic Souls and ready for a Spiritually Connective, Heaven on Earth, Soul Purpose Mission Breakthrough… My Soul Purpose Mission of Music, Transformational Coaching, and Psychedelic Facilitation is Active and Available. Here for You.