Worthy. The word seems to only just rescue the meaning of it out of the gutter of not feeling good enough for so long. My language grasps to contain and express the Energy of what I’m feeling about it… There is More to Worthy…
What would it feel like to feel as Worthy as we do in Heaven? I imagine it would feel like being Loved… Savouring the Luminous Heat of Divine Appreciation and the Soul Deep Healing of Infinitely Generous All-Knowing, All-Loving, All-Forgiving, All-Approving Bliss… And what would it feel like to feel as Worthy as a multi-millionaire on Earth? I imagine it would feel like Creative Power. Freedom. Passion. Excitement. Play. Solar Plexus Supernova Magic. Luxury.
Worthiness is something we all intrinsically Are, by virtue of our Divine Source. Yet actually breathing it in, feeling it, and moving in this World with this Knowing… Feels like a Practice. Connecting with my Essence, my Source, this Divine Love… Reveals to me why inner work is so Worth It, as it opens up a True Connection with Worthiness… Which Elevates thoughts to new vistas of Possibilities through the Power of Focus, and as Energy Flows Where Attention Goes, it Generates the GPS (Godde PowerS) in Motion for Miraculous Manifestations…
Worthiness seems so also be connected to how much I can allow myself to Receive, like sensitivity of my Soul to Savour and the fertility of my Life to Be. It’s interesting noting the conditioning that restricts or denies this Essential Worthiness. Limitations handed down from others at once seemed like solid realities, but now I’m realizing they’re just Creations, Art that I can Play with and Evolve. It’s freeing knowing that we all have the Power of Choice.
Worthiness also feels like it correlates to the fear of being Loved. I can see how I’ve used aspects of myself as excuses to block Love, because I’ve been scared of how much in can hurt when it goes wrong. When I imagine that Heavenly Love, it feels so Safe… But on the human level, so many are wounded and still learning how to communicate well, compassionately care, and consciously cultivate Connections that feel safe on All Levels. I have best friends that I’ve developed long-term Trust with over Time, that I do have this Depth and Soul Safety with… Yet when it comes to an intimate, romantic, sexual Connection… It’s extremely rare to find the level of Evolution and Love my Soul seeks. Even though I’m good on my own, I know that the Flower I Am will Blossom even more in the Sunshine of a Love Partnership. I know this Love exists, because it’s Who I Am.
Worthiness is an Inside Job. I realize even in my effort to Love, when my Sunshine illuminated dark corners of others’ beings, them choosing to run away or stop Loving wasn’t because anything is wrong with me. We all have our reasons to be scared of Love, myself included. Even that is Loveable, and there’s nothing I could ever do, be, or say that could change my Innate Lovability and Worthiness. I’m learning to be careful with others’ vulnerabilities, but I’m tired of feeling like a bull in a china shop with all this Passion. Where is the Courageous Warrior King who Powerfully Loves my Powerful Love in the Most Mutually Beneficial Ways?
“Everything the Light touches is your Kingdom”… What if Divine Love in human form can fully surround and saturate a Soul, and in the Harmony of Connection with an Other can ever expand the Kingdom and Queendom of Heaven Earth? It’s really hard to keep believing but… I’m a Believer. Love / Worthiness like this Alchemizes. Gifts Emerge. Success Soars. Life Magically Blossoms.
To Our Greatest Potential ~*
P.S. My original intention was to share something about the Witchy Website Artist Workshop I’m presenting on December 28… If you are looking for a way to deepen your Self Love, share your Gifts, and expand your Positive Impact from a place of Worthiness… Come play with me and learn how to enjoy creating your Website as a Portal for Self-Realization, Divine Service, and Soul-full Success! Click here to sign up! Love you All... Happy Holidays! ✨
What would it feel like to Be %100 Me? %1000? %5000? %1,000,000s?
This question is inspiring me lately. Especially as I’ve been considering how around certain people and situations, I’ve felt like %5-%10 my True Self. As an intuitive empath I’m always feeling, and learning about the deeper layers within myself and others. I comprehend why many of us don’t feel safe to be Authentic. If there isn’t space for for emotional expression, they can get stuck and create blockages that harden over time, creating a barren numbness.
The connection between Emotions and Spirit is amazing to me. The more that I allow my Soul to flow Free, by caring about what I feel, treating my feelings like valuable intel, nurturing the enriching Connections that help me share my Truth, cultivating compassionate Communication skills, and courageously expressing my Soul in my Full Wattage… The more I feel like Me. Alive. Awake. Inspiring. Present. Authentic.
I’ve often heard that sexual abuse is a kind of Soul murder. How it can create a disconnection from feelings, from honest emotional expression, from boundaries, from the body, from surrendering to pleasure, from the ability to fully Love and be Loved… And I believe that just like when a bone is broken, once it heals it can grow back even stronger.
When I look at this lifetime and the healing journey I’ve been on for almost 20 years… Passionately (and sometimes desperately) pursuing all the therapeutic modalities and empowering options I could find to heal from PTSD triggers, deep emotional pain, intense anxiety, memories of CSA, being gaslit, and now stepping more fully into my Power… I’m amazed. Speaking up about it still feels tender and scary but I know that every time I do, I release layers of shame, and hopefully liberate others to share Authentically.
Wow I feel shame even writing this. Carolyn Grace Elliot (author of Existential Kink, also CSA survivor and Magical Queen) says “shame is the magic killer”. Therefor every time we courageously liberate ourselves from shame’s shackles, we set more of our Magic Free. And it does require Warrior Levels of Courage. Especially when it comes to shifting the patterns to make the BIG CHANGES we’re here to make, both personally and culturally.
I’m so passionate about Soul-Fullness. I know it’s the antidote, the Medicine, the Solution for the evolutionary questions the wounding in the collective asks for. The more of us who are Lit Up and Soul Flowing in our Full Expression, for Our Healing, and the Courageous Revealing of our Soul-Full Authenticity with Love…. The better Life is and the safer it will be for other Beautiful Souls to be %100, %1000, %5000 (and even more) Soul-Full.
I LOVE the Music, Transformational Coaching, and Psychedelic Facilitation Retreats I’m creating because they’re my Healing Power Tools. I LOVE being able to show up every day passionately Me, more and more doing what makes me feel Soul-Full. Right now it’s writing this post and sharing it with You, while listening to my new Music...
What would help you Feel %100, %1000, %5000, or %1,000,000 Soul-Full today? 💜
Inspirational Musician and Transformational Coach