Loving the Darkness

It's a snowy Sunday in Toronto, where I am rooting in for the next few weeks. I'm at a cafe I like called Impact Kitchen, settling in to write before attending a workshop about healing ancestral trauma. Since arriving in Toronto, a new song has been swirling and emerging through me, singing about "Blooming Darkness", which feels like an evolution of my song "Darkness" into more colour and soul connection through embracing the mysterious dark.

Personally, I am on a journey of deepening into my authentic expression, which recently included doing a dominatrix photoshoot.  A part of me has been feeling a deep, raw, passionate craving to allow this empowered aspect of myself to be seen and expressed more. 

​Truthfully, we all have light and dark aspects. Like the cycles of the moon, the changing sky, and the dancing seasons, I have a rich rainbow spectrum of light and dark inside of me. I'm discovering that in choosing to love and learn from these inner polarities, I feel whole.

Love is the Essence of All, the Greatest Healer. I'm fascinated in discovering that as I allow Love to be expressed through my darker aspects, that it allows an even more powerful Great Love to shine through me.

I am loving discovering my dominatrix side; the part of me that isn't afraid to be a bitch, protecting what is most sacred, precious, beloved to me; the part of me that allows my shadows to play out in consensual healing ways; the part of me that owns her righteous power.

Photo by Nicholas Newton

For many of us who've experienced feeling powerless in sexual situations, this can be a truly beneficial expression. To righteously reclaim our power to say no, to express our truth, to play out our deeper desires to be more fully expressed in our bodies can be a revolutionary experience. I am fascinated with the healing potential of soul connected, deeply authentic, heart-centred BDSM, held in sacred space with support for deeper soul integration.

We all have parts of us that serve as our protectors. We may not be always conscious of them but they're there, playing out under the surface or in our shadows. 

For me, not feeling safe  to express and learn from my anger made me bury it, into a war with my body. For many years, I felt angst, anxiety, and anger at my form; shame of my vulnerable loving sexuality; deep sadness in my cells that didn't yet have support to be released with a creative outlet or an empathic witness. 

Now that I'm giving myself the space and freedom to allow more genuine expressions to play out, it feels like a release. Pent up energy can finally flow generously.

​I love this journey of enlightening, enlovening, enlivening my being. I love exploring the dark matter of my consciousness. I love learning from journeys through my inner cosmos. I love excavating the jewels of  wisdom, purpose, and passion from deep within.

Photo by Nicholas Newton

At this time in the collective evolution, the Feminine is rising in all of us. From my perspective that means honouring the voice of my flowing emotions, my blossoming body, my connection with our loving Earth. There is so much Love shining through these aspects that are also dark, mysterious, and communicating with a language deeper than words. 

It's time for me to head to this workshop... I hope you enjoyed this share. I encourage you, if you feel inspired, to dive into your Darkness... To find the parts of you that feel shunned, shamed, and stuck; and Love them into Wholeness. 

Peace, Love, Power ~*

Cora
January 27, 2019