Then in group therapy experiences, I dropped in to deeply feel others as they shared. I learned the power of "I feel" statements, and how they facilitated deep emotional releases. I courageously broke the ice of my fear and allowed my soul to flow through as I shared what I felt. It was healing to be held in a group, where our experiences could be lovingly witnessed, and where the common themes of how our journeys harmonized could be learned from.
A challenge of my experience is that I don't have %100 clarity on my past. I am %100 certain that I have experienced PTSD symptoms, body memories, emotional flashbacks, anxiety, and depression. Yet perhaps because the glimmers of what I remember are from early childhood, my psyche has only given me pieces of information. Because of this, a lot of my healing journey has been dealing with raw energy.
This energy, I've discovered, can be very powerfully worked with through the Voice. Mentally processing information is useful at times, but when that information isn't available, being able to honour the communications of the emotions and body is helpful. Sounding, the process of releasing sounds freely in an energetically cathartic way, has been great for releasing pressure and allowing emotions to flow through. Movement, flowing as authentically as possible, has also helped open up gateways of soulful resonance where there used to be stuck pain or emotions.
The soulful resonance of singing opened up my heart, especially when I felt like I would never be able to love again. Singing connects me with my emotions, with my Soul, with Divine Love. I love allowing the resonance of my feelings to flow through my Voice and discovering that it can be a portal to Heavenly Vibrations.
Crystallizing my feelings into original songs, I found that I could alchemize my pain connected to sexual trauma into empowering wisdom, healing energies, and inspiration to catalyze evolution. The experience of writing songs from desperately deep pain and then finding the beautiful light at the end of the tunnel - and then sharing that emotional journey with others who are seeking similar healing themselves - is an incredible Gift.
The most essential benefit of healing with the Voice is this Divinely Connective power it has. For much of my life, I walked around in a disconnected state. The more that I heal, the more I appreciate what an amazing tool the Voice is for re-connecting, re-associating, and revolutionizing this world. I carry a flame of hope in my heart that silence around these issues - and the deep shame that keeps them secret - can be lovingly bloomed open with our Voices. The more we courageously speak up for ourselves and our loved ones, the better we can connect and live in Harmony.
Love, Truth, Connection ~*
December 7, 2019