It's a tradition of mine to write a blog to integrate and celebrate each year. Even though personally and collectively 2020 was a very challenging one, as I'm looking back, I'm super amazed and feel called to love it up...
E U F L O R I A
2020 began with one of the best parties of my life, hosted by one of my favourite visionary artists, Autumn Skye. I was so honoured to be invited to the event that blessed me up with inspiring people, epic food, awesome music, and generally a luminous moment of inspiration on my journey as an artist.
In the dark grey of January, the Flow within and around me aligned to record my album Eufloria. I suddenly had a wide open window of time, financial space to breathe thanks to a great coaching opportunity, and a deep current of inspiration to be creative. So I dove in and completely immersed myself in the music production process.
Eufloria called me into her magic passionately and required my total devotion. My previous album Illumination brought me around the world, and this one brought me deep within my inner world. Loving my shadows, my dark parts, my multi-faceted healing journey. I challenged myself production wise to play with new instrumentation, partly because my guitar broke (ha), and because it was a fun challenge to see what I could do with just my computer.
I love it now so much. Even though it felt like coming out to reveal these deeper authentic parts of me and songs that were differently darker than my previous work, I'm so proud of myself. I worked really hard on it and released it in March, around the dawn of Spring (although it was officially mastered and released in July)... But then...
C O R O N A V I R U S
Wow... The global amygdala hijack and epic Great Awakening catalyst! I'm glad my album had her perfect moment to be born in the winter because as soon as the Coronavirus experience began, as someone with PTSD and as an intuitive empath, suddenly I was deeply challenged, doing the work of recalibrating on whole new levels. Before this time, I often felt alone in my struggles, like a black sheep or lone wolf traveling through the smoke of this world. Now I felt like I was at the top of a mountain watching the whole world move through our shadows and deeper layers.
Connection suddenly came into focus, how key it is to cultivate meaningful loving relationships to be able to not only greet the challenges of this time in our Greatest Potential, but also how necessary it is for survival. I was in creative hermit mode all winter, and when Corona hit I felt new depths of loneliness that compelled me to create connections. I called in an epic sexually liberating connection with a guy who ghosted me after (yikes, but thanks so much), amazing new friendships with super inspiring beings on levels I didn't even know where possible before, and deepended in Divine Love with my soul and blood family. This organic healing process is continually blossoming...
M O T O R C Y C L E
I couldn't write a blog about 2020 and not mention one of my favourite parts... My motorcycle! Ever since riding scooters in tropical countries, meeting a guy along the psychic fair journey who was doing a cross Canada tour on his Ducati, and seeing so many older guys riding badass bikes in Powell River... I've had a deep soul hunger to ride.
What a journey... Everything from buying the bike, to learning to ride, to all my epic trips around beautiful BC... It was infused with initiations, cool new friendships, and amazing opportunities to express my authentic self. I love the feeling of cruising while listening to amazing music sooooo mucccccch! It was exhilarating and life changing. I know that motorcycles are a true love of my life that will continue, deepen, and enrich my experience over time...
N E W H O M E
Even though I loved the peace and the glorious ocean sunset views of Powell River, for a few months I had been feeling a calling to find a new home. My apartment there started as the most amazing and much needed sanctuary... But as time progressed I desired more vibrational space, energetic sovereignty, and connection with the ocean.
Although it took many months to manifest, as I was energizing the field, opening to options, and going through a journey of inner shifts to be ready for my next level, I found it! Well, my friend who has "kijiji juju" or "marketplace mojo" did. A flow of Grace aligned that I couldn't refuse, so even though it was a big shift to move to the Sunshine Coast, I'm so happy I did. My new place near Sechelt has one of the best ocean views I've ever seen, gorgeous unique design, and a clawfoot bathtub with golden feet. I feel like I won the lottery.
Sadly, my cat Luna raw away months before I moved. I've cried many tears over the loss of my most loyal companion who was always there for me with cuddles full of Divine Love, especially through some of my darkest moments. I miss her so much. At the time of writing this, there is still hope, as she was possibly spotted in Powell River. Like everything I'm doing my best but also surrendering to the Highest Good of All.
Now onto the questions from previous year celebrating blogs... This is fun...
What was your style in 2020?
Black, purple, gold, and more red. I dont have a lot of clothes but I have fun with playing with style! I also added extensions to my magical locks which make me feel more authentically beautiful. And I had fun playing with makeup!
What song(s) will always make you think of 2020?
"Goddess" by Jaira Burns
Did you fall in Love in 2020?
Yes! I feel and love so deeply it's hard not to. Even though I'm still single, I am excited to continue on the journey of loving as fully and deeply as I can. Perhaps more emphasis on also infinitely equally receiving too.
Did anyone close to you die?
Possibly my cat Luna... Although a shaman lady told me she's "transforming".
Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not this year... Although it's been amazing witnessing the quality of Souls entering this world now!
What countries did you travel to?
Oh my Goodness, I stayed in Canada this whole time. Hahahaha!!! I definitely wanted to travel to Maui and Bali many times... But with Coronavirus limitations I've been in blissful bondage here. I love BC and am thankful to be here.
What kept you sane in 2020?
Questionable haha... Truly though I worked really hard to heal, alchemize, and stay rooted in my body despite the extraordinary world turbulence. What really helped was MUSIC, writing, spiritual practices, nature walks, salt water baths, great connections, deep conversations, receiving therapy, showing up to be of service when possible...
How did you spend Christmas in 2020?
Awww!!! Surprisingly I got to spend it with one of my favourite people EVER, dancing around an epic fire, diving deep in soulful conversations, enjoying the moment fully.
Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Richer or poorer? Richer.. Money feels very important to empower myself with more in this coming year. I've been doing so much inner work, I feel as I expand with sharing my Gifts that the receiving of Gifts will expand too.
ii. Fatter or thinner? I don't know... I feel pretty grounded and confident though thanks to swimming, dancing, hiking, and going for indoor tans (Vitamin D)!! Also choosing to let my Soul flow through as authentically and courageously as I can, choosing Love to be more powerful than my fear. Big ask with PTSD but I'm going for it.
iii. Happier or sadder? Possibly a deeper and wiser blend of both. Expanding my wings and capacity for Greatness.
Wishing you all a deep, enriching, and glorious 2021!! Let's ROCK IT!!!