Life is inspiring me these days to ponder a lot about love and relationships. I've always had seeds of hope and an internal compass guiding me towards what I desire, yet actually believing it's possible is a new frontier.
My intention then and now is to create Heaven on Earth, or to harmonize the two as much as possible while here. I feel like my soul came to this life encoded with inspiration about new levels of what is truly possible. The path and this wisdom is slowly revealing itself, through catalytic challenges and loving luminosity. Even though it all feels so mysterious, I am in awe and enjoying this dance as the Universe, with the Universe.
Love has always been my deepest wish, my greatest goal, the fire within all my dreams. Even though it's scary and challenging, I surrender to the path of Love, and am humbly excited to see how it all plays out.
Presence, Power, Freedom ~*
August 18, 2019
Today I am writing from a sweet AirBnB in Thunder Bay, Ontario. I am presently on tour with Galaxy Psychic Fairs, on a journey across Canada. I didn't even know these fairs existed until a few weeks ago, when I went to my first one. A wave of encouraging inspiration flowed through me to ask to be a part of it, and now here I am.
It's only my second weekend of being a part of this fair, but already I have a treasure trove of Greatitude for all the Amazing Souls I've met and the mystical messages that flowed through for them. I am learning so much and am so inspired by the unique stories and inspiring perspectives of the people I've been blessed to Connect with.
Personally my inner Connection is strengthening, crystallizing, purifying as I do this Work... In the vesica pisces of these Divine Conversations with Beautiful Souls, I'm receiving and communicating into the glorious spaces where our journeys harmonize and reveal the currents of Great Purpose flowing through the tapestries of our lives.
Deep down I feel so blessed to receive this wonderful soul-enhancing opportunity to travel, flow inspiration, and catalyze in constellations of Love with inspiring beings. My deep craving for Spirit is being nourished and expanded as my perspective dilates to See from a Divine Perspective. We are all so Loved and Worthy of Heaven on Earth.
I am so excited to see how this journey flows, weaving with musical events and healing workshops along the way. Music is flowing strongly and intuitively through the Intuitive Guidance sessions, so I trust the perfect portals to share it more are being orchestrated in alignment with the Highest Good of all. Giving Thanks!
Wishing you a beautiful, miraculous, and luminous Now. :)
Peace, Love, Grace ~*
March 16, 2019
Today I'm writing from FIKA, one of my favourite Toronto cafes. I remember working on my album Illumination here a few summers ago, swinging in the hammock in their cute backyard as the sunlight danced through the green leaves above me. It's one of those magical little nooks of this intricate and complex city that make it special.
Something I'm appreciating about Toronto is the vibrant powerful current. I am a highly sensitive empath, and sometimes it's intense navigating the swiftly ever-changing energies when I'm out. My main way of staying in my own vibe and following my flow of inspiration is surrendering to the river of life, swimming where it feels better.
Personally I've always felt different than the norm... The ideals that society gave me about what I was supposed to do with my life didn't inspire me. Even now as I type this, I feel an immense excitement swirling in my soul, a deep knowing of the Creative Power inside me and all of us. We are surfing waves of Infinite Creativity, right NOW.
I feel that we are in a collective Great Awakening on Earth right now. People are waking up to what we truly feel, Who We Truly Are, and what is truly possible when we honour this. It's amazing to witness and participate in!
Yet there is also a deeply humbling challenging aspect to it all. Creating the new sometimes involves letting go of the old. As old parts of ourselves and this world fall away, sometimes it's painful and confusing. In my experience, awakening and healing are an organic process guided by Grace. I'm now in a process of feeling and releasing; what I truly desire and the friction that is ready to be loved, illuminated, and alchemized to create space for it to blossom.
Healing, Harmony, Home ~*
February 9, 2019
Welcome to February. It's one of my favourite months because of Valentine's Day on the 14th, and my birthday on the 24th. I love that in the deep dark depths of winter, we have an opportunity to crystallize how we love ourselves and each other. I love celebrating Love. Yesterday I wrote this in my physical journal:
This feels a bit scary to post here, but I feel inspired to share what's real and authentic to me. Maybe in some ways I'm a bit of a soul exhibitionist; I do have a lot of courage to break through my fear and share things even if it feels vulnerable to. I've discovered that cracking through the ice allows for the sweetest healing waters to flow through. When I perform songs from my soul, or say things that are hard to say but need to be said, or share a courageous expression of a very deep part of me, it is sometimes risky but always worth it to let my soul flow through.
I invite you to consider being an Artist of Love in your life... How can you Love even more intentionally, honouring the deeply glistening Gold of your Soul? What would your life look like if you truly honoured it as your Masterpiece? How amazing can you imagine your Love Life to be? What would your Heaven on Earth feel and look like?
Your Source is inside you... You are the One at the Center of your Life. Creating what you desire flowers from the core of Who You Truly Are. Blossoming into the Love you yearn for begins with romancing yourself. When you Love yourself the way you wish to Love and Be Loved, you create a Universal Current that invites it into your Life.
Peace, Love, Romance ~*
February 3, 2019
It's a snowy Sunday in Toronto, where I am rooting in for the next few weeks. I'm at a cafe I like called Impact Kitchen, settling in to write before attending a workshop about healing ancestral trauma. Since arriving in Toronto, a new song has been swirling and emerging through me, singing about "Blooming Darkness", which feels like an evolution of my song "Darkness" into more colour and soul connection through embracing the mysterious dark.
For many of us who've experienced feeling powerless in sexual situations, this can be a truly beneficial expression. To righteously reclaim our power to say no, to express our truth, to play out our deeper desires to be more fully expressed in our bodies can be a revolutionary experience. I am fascinated with the healing potential of soul connected, deeply authentic, heart-centred BDSM, held in sacred space with support for deeper soul integration.
At this time in the collective evolution, the Feminine is rising in all of us. From my perspective that means honouring the voice of my flowing emotions, my blossoming body, my connection with our loving Earth. There is so much Love shining through these aspects that are also dark, mysterious, and communicating with a language deeper than words.
It's time for me to head to this workshop... I hope you enjoyed this share. I encourage you, if you feel inspired, to dive into your Darkness... To find the parts of you that feel shunned, shamed, and stuck; and Love them into Wholeness.
Peace, Love, Power ~*
January 27, 2019
This evening I feel inspired to share some inspiration flowing through me about honouring our bodies. Personally as I awaken, I'm realizing how empowering it is to take care of this beautiful organic being, and furthermore, to honour her as a Divine Creation. When profound levels of respect, reverence, and care are present, Divine Love illuminates.
Imagine if our media, and even pornography, presented expressions of the female body that truly honoured the Godde within. How differently would this affect the way men treat women on the street? How differently would young boys respect young women? How would this change our own relationships with our bodies (beyond gender), to truly treat these perfectly imperfect, animalistic, elemental embodiments of our souls as Beings of Godde?
I feel that the more we can presence ourselves to the majesty within us, and all around us, the more we can live Heaven on Earth. When we truly love and honour each being as a Being of Godde, there will be no need for sexual violence. The Great Love that we all come from will flow through us even more, empowering us to see the glorious beauty we truly are and feel the soul deep compassion for each one of us Connected by Life, Godde Being.
I invite you to explore deepening into this... How would you treat your body if you knew Godde lives inside you? How would you treat your partner / lover / client / friend / family member's body knowing Godde lives inside them? It's time for us to rise into our Divine Heritage, to treat each other with the utmost respect, honour, and reverence.
Peace, Love, Truth ~*
January 15, 2019
There's a trend flowing around social media to compare ourselves in a photo from 10 years ago to now... So I felt inspired to take a look into the past and see how I've changed. People often reflect to me how much I've changed in the last few years. Below are photos that are almost a decade apart. It's pretty emotional witnessing the difference...
In the photo on the left I was 22. I remember I felt so uncomfortable in my body that even scrounging together those clothes to look nice for the photoshoot was a challenge. I had just met a guy who would become my first male love, who cracked me open sexually and also awakened me onto a journey of healing.
In the photo on the right I was 31. After years of working like a warrior to reclaim my soul and righteous well being, I felt more beautiful and at home in my body than ever. At the time I was working on my newest album Illumination. I was deepening into my trust of my body, my soul, my emotions, and my connection with Spirit.
There's so much more I want to say... But photos speak for themselves. Above is a photo from my recent trip to Maui. I am still working on healing through PTSD and deepening my authentic presence in my body... Yet it's amazing witnessing what has blossomed. I'm excited to see how the next ten years play out, how I can celebrate this gift of life and allow it to be a blessing to all of Creation. I am thankful for this journey of transformation, of butterflying.
Respect, Love, and Honour ~*
January 14, 2019
Last night, I prayed for healing dreams. This morning, I woke up with an energy of happiness shining through my heart, like a gentle rising sun. I decided to do what would nurture and support this energy to expand. Closing my eyes, breathing deeply, soaking in the warm dreamy bed vibes with a purring cat by my side, I focused on the feeling.
I resonated it into a vocal melody that I then translated onto the piano... A new song began emerging! Personally, it's a very rare mystical thing when a new song is born through me, so I was delighted and blissed as it flowed in.
After breakfast, I went for a walk and then got ready for a healing session. I felt a bit on the fence about offering sessions at this time, not sure if my wings are ready, as they still feel wet and gooey from chrysalis of my own healing process. Yet the wind blew an amazing opportunity my way, so I trusted the readiness strengthening inside me.
The session was amazing. I feel it opened up a new chapter of where my healing sessions are going. Of course each soul's journey is unique, so each session is different... However the tools I can offer and the sacred container I can create are now crystallizing. We began with her intention, and picked a "Keepers of the Light" card. I flowed on the winds of prayers and surrendered to the moment. I feel like my role is that of intuitive guide and soul midwife, supporting the organic healing process of our Divine Essence blossoming authentically. I'm amazed at how our souls know what to do. I sensitively facilitate by bringing forth intuitive guidance, healing musical energies, and compassionate presence, yet most importantly I'm allowing Spirit to illuminate us for the Highest Good.
It's such a blessing to do this work. I'm thankful for all the challenges in my life that have given me the opportunity to cultivate healing gifts. In some of my darkest times, my craving for Spirit was so intense that diving deep into my soul and honouring it's mysterious movement was the only guiding light that helped me through.
After the session, I cleared the space and my own energy. I integrated the blessings by emailing notes and making dinner. I savoured a sense of confidence in my own soul wisdom becoming stronger and stronger. Even though it's the dark of winter, the shining sun inside me is growing with a golden glow.
This year feels like a whole new frontier. I'm excited about musical travels on the horizon, and to offer the depth of my heart in healing work as well. I have come to realize that music and healing are both interconnected parts of my purpose. I absolutely adore being a conduit and conductor for both.
January 2, 2019
This time of year feels like a moment between breaths to rest and reflect; a sacred few days between the flurry of the holidays and the surge of inspiration to move forward with the new year. I'm presently housesitting in my hometown of Sarnia, Ontario which received a light blanket of fresh snow last night. I feel inspired to hibernate the whole day and it feels so nourishing. I'm loving that the inner movement is naturally flowing into a creative expression.
This is the "best nine" of my Instagram for 2018. Interesting that there's four photos of me, two glorious bath tubs, my shipment of re-designed CDs, and the best nine from last year. Music, healing, and traveling were the big themes of my year, so I'd love to dive in a bit deeper to honour and celebrate the flow of life I've been blessed with.
M U S I C
Musically some of the highlights this year were re-designing my album art for the Illumination CD the way I've always wanted it to be, going on tour through the west coast of North America, and playing shows on Maui. I got to play with some amazing musicians who each inspired and taught me about this art in their own special way. Throughout the year I wrote quite a few new songs, and feel like I have almost an album's worth. :)
H E A L I N G
Healing is a big part of my life, as I'm fascinated with how to connect with Spirit, embody my Soul, and create Heaven on Earth more through living authentically. I admit that in many ways this year I felt like I was broken open, for good. The natural alchemy of pain into purpose is work I love to do for myself and facilitate for others. In 2018 I committed to diving deep in therapy, honouring the flow of inspirational guidance, and cultivating my healing gifts.
T R A V E L I N G
Although at the beginning of the year I was deeply rooted in the hippie Ontario town of Peterborough, the nourishment and motivation I received there propelled me to Salt Spring Island, into the heartlands and up the west coast of the USA, to majestic New York City for the first time, on a mystical whim to Dubai, and a 3 month journey of exploring the glorious magic of Maui. Traveling is refreshing and rejuvenating for my whole being; I am so thankful.
Because I'd like for this journal to be authentic and share more than just the positive aspects of my experience, I feel inspired to answer a little survey that I found on Gala Darling's blog that may expand my reflections...
What did you do in 2018 that you’d never done before?
Nude photoshoot with an amazing professional photographer; the photo above is from that shoot, which was incredibly healing and inspiring. I got to open for Nahko Bear at Project Earth Festival with Jared Woods. I had the blessing of traveling with an amount of money that allowed me to choose based on vibration rather than limitation.
Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't remember if I made any aside from some plans to tour... However I feel like in many ways this year compelled me to surrender to the mystery of life and flow with it. This year I'd like to set intentions based on desired energetic state of being, and flow that into monthly plans of action. It's such a delicate thing to balance plan and flow for me!
Did anyone close to you give birth?
My sister gave birth to a little boy, however sadly because of family issues I haven't had the chance to meet him yet.
Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully, no. Although my interest in mediumship deepened this year.
What countries did you visit?
Canada, United States of America, Russia, United Arab Emirates.
What would you like to have in 2019 that you lacked in 2018?
Rooted home base that can be a creative haven and soothing sanctuary, for me and my cat Luna.
Did you suffer illness or injury?
There were moments when my PTSD, anxiety, depression were really intense. On a deeper level it has felt soul crushing and emotionally excruciating many times. Yet I somehow have cultivated the resilience to keep rising.
What was the best thing you bought?
My new MacBook Air! For a while I was living and traveling with just an iPad. It was light and convenient but it's amazing having the "bicycle for creativity" as Steve Jobs intended.
What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Touring!!! Traveling to amazing new places!!! Learning about Divine Living from Gina DeVee!!! Music!!!!
What song will always remind you of 2018?
Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. Happier or sadder? Happier although this time of year is often challenging for me.
ii. Thinner or fatter? Healthier and more vibrant in many ways, in terms of size I don't know.
iii. Richer or poorer? Richer in experience... I'm healing and strengthening my finances.
What do you wish you’d done more of?
Take photos with people I love and enjoy. I very rarely take photos with other people because I find it awkward, but this year I'd like to capture more special moments with people for memories and social media.
What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worry about the future. Often in moments of uncertainty, I get into a human state of fear that drains my ability to appreciate the present. From now on, I'd like to deepen my trust in the Divine Presence no matter the circumstances.
How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent Christmas with good friends, drinking wine, and eating delicious food. It was sad in some ways, but special.
What was the most embarrassing thing that happened to you in 2018?
Making daily vlogs on YouTube of healing times in Peterborough, and then touring through the USA. I felt inspired to share more authentically than ever, which included the deep emotions that flow with challenging times. I am still recovering form the vulnerability hangover of sharing my tender feelings and moments online, yet I feel like it's good to break through the social media perfectionism that's permeated on the internet these days.
Did you fall in love in 2018?
Yes, but not in super deep sacred container of relationship the way my heart seeks... Maybe next year. ;)
How many one-night stands?
Honestly, none. I had opportunities but I'm more interested in soulful connections in sexual experiences which I'm in a constantly evolving movement of exploring. Honouring my heart more than ever to walk in my integrity.
What was your favorite TV program?
Monica the Medium. Greenleaf. United States of Tara. Nashville.
Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don't hate anyone. However I've deepened in understanding, compassion, and boundaries to honour my well-being.
What was the best book you read?
Web of Angels by Lillian Nattel
What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Thankful I had a sweet moment with my Mom on my 32nd birthday.
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2018?
Purple!!! Haha... Seriously though people often reflect that I wear a lot of purple. I just love it. I also love to wear black and the occasional magical looking items.
What kept you sane?
My therapist, journal, friends, music, nature, wine, swimming, dancing, traveling, spirituality.
What political issue stirred you the most?
The whole #metoo movement. It is amazing witnessing the collective healing and empowerment emerging!
Who was the best new person you met?
Soooooooo many amazing people... In terms of deep soul friendship and inspiring influence, I'd say Poni Brendan.
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2018:
Honour and trust the deeper wisdom of my heart.
Gratitude, Honour, and Celebration ~*
December 30, 2018